WELCOME TO MY VOID
thoughtspill //
some kinda journal
so this year has been going exceptionally well - and no, this isn't sarcasm. this has been the trend for the past 3 years... i gain way more than i lose and even whatever i lose wasn't worth keeping to begin with. doesn't mean there hasn't been hardship, of course. stressful moving, unshakeable illness. figuring out that my rulebook of life needed altering. at the beginning of '25, you could've waved a giant red flag in front of me and i would've rationalized said toxic behaviour through empathy.
i despise empathy. i wish i had none of it. i wonder if i could go back in time, would i still shrug it off just so future me will never make the same mistake again?
am i a bad person, dot? you asked.
yes. yes, you fucking are, i should have said.
and yet i can't help but hope they found happiness. even though i want nothing to do with them. growth? idk.
06/08/2025 ☆ 23:07 written by dot
i have ideas, of course, loads of 'em, except i have no time or energy. bah. will get there. still haven't abandoned this project, it's just sleeping.
05/07/2025 ☆ 16:23 written by dot
i'll come back to work on this, life is just busy. see ya in august (maybe?)
09/06/2025 ☆ 16:36 written by dot
added enter page. looking hawt.
08/06/2025 ☆ 19:52 written by dot
who knew all i needed to gain back my spark was a little css.
mood //
music corner //
new candys - dark love ♫⋆｡♪